Sunday, April 10, 2016

(I think I made you up inside my head.)


Lush and gorgeous in black and white, Mickey Keating's 2015 psychological horror Darling has drawn very obvious comparisons to Repulsion, Roman Polanski's 1965 film most known for its prototypical use of a female killer, practically unheard of in the genre at the time. Although flawed, it's an homage that commands—and deserves—attention.

With the absence of modern markers and technology, it looks to be lost in time, and it's a large New York mansion (with a dark history, naturally) that sets the perfect stage for the unnamed title character, who spends most of the film alone, to slowly lose her grip on reality. The movie is told in chapters, the moments that tie it together quietly unnerving and almost coming off as non-sequiturs serving only to illustrate that descent into madness—which, come to think of it, is kind of the point. The only distinct plot lines involve the young woman's sudden, furious fixations on a man from the neighborhood and a locked door upstairs. And by the time the credits roll, you could never quite tell the difference between what was an object of delusion and what really happened. 

Darling's rapid nightmare imagery paired with sudden bursts of sound will make your heart stop, but it's the long, anguished sequences and actress Lauren Ashley Carter's piercing stare that will keep you rapt. 












Saturday, April 9, 2016

I'm a closure junkie


Remember when I said I'd started scouting for cheap 35mm film cameras on OLX? A couple of weeks ago in the middle of my toy camera obsession I decided, on a whim, to see if there were any ads for the Minox DCC on the site. I've seen one or two on there a while ago, but I could never dream of going after them at the time and they were always gone eventually. It's not that easy to find these little guys in Manila, honestly. But that day everything seemed to align: The camera was relatively new and being sold for half the price, and I could meet the seller in UP to claim it. 

So I did just that, and I'm in love with it, terrible quality, and all. Like I anticipated, it's super lightweight (I'm too lazy to take a better photo than the one above but look how tiny! Using my glasses for size reference was a cute idea.) and easy to whip out, so I can take a picture without worrying too much, and that's definitely good for creativity. 

I honestly never thought I would ever get to own it after six years of pining. 

To conclude, here's a compilation of photos I took from the day I first got it: 


I love the Strokes.

 

♫ North Ave. I love you / But you're bringin' me down 

Monday, April 4, 2016

photo diary #1

So. My life has completely flipped over the last month and I'm not sure I want to write about it. (A first!) Let's just say I've been a big mess lately. Too much information, too much to process, to much to do, too much to feel. Never any time.

But, for context: I got a job. A real job. With, like, decent pay, and stuff. Doing something I love. In publishing. While I'm still a student. I'm an editorial assistant, and it's both everything and nothing like I expected. I've met such amazing people. It's mega cool.

I'm just not 100% happy, and it's hard to explain.

[Cue Britney Spears's "Lucky," am I right?]

For the last few weeks I've finally been getting back to a healthy mindset. Then this monumental shift happened and the sads picked right back up. But that's a story for another time, if there's one.

Anyhoozers, I'm going to take advantage of my Internet (Former) Teen status now and throw together a couple of shitty low-quality phone photos I took recently. I'm actually pretty glad that the iPhone age, coupled with noughties nostalgia, has made them ironically hip/aesthetically acceptable again.


A couple of weeks ago I got to go to the Makati office of Canva, a Sydney-based graphic design app. It felt like walking into that Parks and Rec arc where Blake Anderson is the head of Gryzzl, a super zeitgeist-y, actually pretty terrifying startup. Needless to say: beyond cool.


The huge corkboard is right above my desk at work and I was so delighted to find a Phrazes-era Julian Casablancas flyer (of his pseudo-iconic Palace Theater residency!) on our mood board. 


I attended a launch party for Perro Berde VI, a free magazine that's a joint project between Instituto Cervantes and the Spanish Embassy. 


I'm obsessed with the all-pink, plant-adorned ladies' room in the newly-reopened A.S. pavilion one. 


I bought a book of poems from the stall in A.S. a few months ago and it had everyone from Sylvia Plath to Anne Sexton to Philip Larkin. I hadn't heard of John Wain when I read this, but this poem had a tight grip on me from the get-go. I'd never read anything so closely resembling my life. 


I attended my first Art in the Park with Ate Inah and Patti just yesterday. This above piece is very Adam Green-meets-MGMT to me. I couldn't afford anything save for two postcards, but it was nice to be looking at nice things in the company of people I liked spending time with and the outdoors, even if it was scorching. We capped the day off at 8 Cuts and I had a burger with only onions and truffle creamed cheese, which is a revelation.